Get well Lillian

Wed. 3/28/07 my mother had a mild heart attack. After being admitted to the hospital it was discovered that she had an artery that was 99% blocked. They performed an angioplasty and it was treated successfully. She will only have to remain in the hospital 2 or 3 days.
Ruthie, my older sister by 2 1/2 yrs. emailed me a sweet note to let me know, and saying my mother (bio) mother would like to hear from me, but if I didn't wish to call her it was ok. You see, I met my bio family about 20 or so years ago, but haven't really become too close. No particular reason other than I was busy raising my own family. I really enjoy Ruthie..she's very understanding of my feelings, not pushy, and pretty funny too.

Thank you Dr. P

This past week I went for 3 fairly long walks. It was pleasurable...usually I avoid waking. It wasn't until yesterday after hiking a pretty substantial trail including hills, I really realized it's easy now. The reason? My knee replacement last year in April. Now I can do things I just avoided in the past, pretty much feeling like I was lazy or totally out of shape. It was just a bad knee that prevented activity. Thank you Dr. P. You did a teriffic job.

Gratitude

Saturday I spent the day with a good friend. We had lunch together, went and saw an entertaining movie, then decided to go for a walk near my daughter #2's home. We stopped to see if daughter #2 wanted to go walk with us, but she couldn't as her husbands family was on the way to share a St. Patrick Day dinner. They did however invite my friend and I to come back for dinner after our walk. We did indeed come back and had a great time, eating delicious corned beef and cabbage, listening to the conversations of young parents and their children, and observing and enjoying my grandson toddling around his house. That evening my friend called to thank me for including her in my family, and that it reminded her of when she was small and her family was nearby and they would go for visits to various relatives. She has no children and said she misses her brothers and mother now that they live out of state. You see, my friend is accomplished so many things. She owns a beautiful home that she lives in, and a handful more that are investments. She also is a small business owner who is respected by her clients and peers. She is absolutely lovely and has a wonderful boyfriend she cares about deeply who also cares deeply about her. Sometimes I can't help but compare myself and wonder why I couldn't have accomplished more in my lifetime. I'm divorced, own no home, have no income at present, and no worldly goods. Sometimes I just wonder why I didn't make different choices so I could be more ahead at this stage in my life. Her simple thank you call left me with such gratitude for all that I do have. Truth be told, I wanted children more than anything in my life. In actuality I did accomplish what I wanted. No material item or riches would have made me happier.

Beginnings

Wow! I've been putting off creating a blog for oh, lets say, 5 yrs. now maybe? It was sooo easy. Something about beginning something new for me creates panic. Not only panic but I mean real crippling fear panic, the kind that just immobilizes every creative thought. No, not just creative thoughts, just any thoughts, period. I guess the true challenge will be to write regularly. I want to, I have always wanted to write. About what do I begin to write? Who cares? What is interesting? What should I not say? What Should I say? Oh my, it's getting difficult again. Perhaps I'll just stop now, let this be the 1st post of all time, and see when I get back to this blog.
I'm thinking it will be soon.